Last week, there were episodes of stress. One project had a critical go-live this weekend (which ended well), and participants were getting nervous and raising pessimistic scenarios. Another larger project was also going live in the next week where there was risk perceived by the overall manager. He sent an email and organized a daily meeting for next week with top managers. He was right to raise the red flag as I have been left to fend for myself in not the best of circumstances.
I often find myself in this situation where I have to extract myself from difficulties like a hero in a movie. I tend to move forward in a risky environment confident of breaking through with my optimism and drive. Perhaps this attitude seems reckless but like an athlete in a race, one must just prevail against constraints imposed by the body, by the environment, and by other individuals who like to hamper progress. In other words, I treat a project as a mental and physical challenge that needs to be conquered.
Obviously, the hero culture is a remnant of the old ways of working, instead a systemic process should prevail with governance and shared responsibility ensuring a well-measure response without stress or burnout to any individuals. This is the hallmark of a mature and advanced organization. My present workplace is a mix; in transition towards the target workplace and away from the 'Wild West' of the past with a hard-driving hero culture where the fittest survive.
On Friday, the emergency meeting started at 8 am and I prepared a slide to present the situation and delivered a report that explained the situation. In the afternoon, the leader of the support organization called and requested to postpone the disaster exercise which relieved me of the responsibility of the delay and preventing a failed exercise over the weekend. This is the best outcome that one can think of while hopefully, saving me and my reputation, wherein I find myself time and again in this place.
Yesterday we hiked for 4 hours in a state park with cool weather of spring and I enjoyed the trek though my friends were not as physically fit. Similar to the project at the workplace, where I persevere with my stamina despite some momentary setbacks. I loved to hike in the forest which allowed me to restore my equilibrium from the toxic workplace though my mind churned away on thoughts about friends and jealousy and rivalries. But nature does help in claiming the mind and bringing thought back into balance.
The food at the picnic was not great but welcome after the hike as we sat before a small lake under the trees enjoying the scene. We went home afterward, with a short stay at a friend's house to watch the turmoil in the markets due to the tariffs raised a few days again (Liberation Day). I woke up early the next day at 2 am as a database was migrated to a new server and went live without an issue. This outcome was a good start for the coming week as I feel refreshed to face next challenges in the days ahead.
